Thursday, July 22, 2010

I Used To...

I used to be good with numbers and variables...
I used to be good in analyzing stuff...
I used to be more open with challenges in front of me...
Now that I need them, they're all gone...

Where does this leave me?!

Sigh... Regrets...

6 comments:

Christopher Scott said...

I believe you're going through a teen life crisis. You're turning 20 in a few months. It's natural that you will try to look at what you've done with your life so far. You might think you've deteriorated since you were in high school. It's just that you are now in a more open environment. Back in Uno, no matter what happened, you know you are safe because you grew up studying in Uno since kindergarten. Now that you are in the Ateneo, you face more difficult challenges. The safety net of familiarity is no longer there. Just chill back a bit and start living your life in the present. Stop looking back at what was and what could have been. If you still want to look at the past, take a look at what you have accomplished. You should start preparing for a future. A smart kid like you has a long way to go so cheer up. :D

Anonymous said...

Mr.Christopher Scott,
You're such a nice person.

vampiejen said...

Sigh...
@Scott, I'm actually looking at things I've accomplished, which makes me sad because I haven't really done something as great or something I'm really proud of this year. And yes, you really had to mention that I'm turning 20 in a few months. Hahahaha...

@Anonymous Scott really is a very nice person. :D Who are you by the way? :D

Christopher Scott said...

Sorry for the deleted comments but my browser keeps sending half the message.
Anyway, a lot of people tend to miss things when it's time for self reflection, especially people like us who are low in self-confidence. Theo tells me I don't have a lot of confidence in my own capabilities. I think we're the same in that way. You may think that you have not done much recently but hey, life isn't always exciting. You get slow days, weeks, months or maybe even years but doesn't mean that's your limit already.
I think you're just scared and you don't know it. When we were about to go into college, you already had a sure pass to Ateneo. You also stacked up a lot of achievements for your resume. Now, you are about to apply for OJT and you can't think of any recent achievements to write for your resume. I believe this is the root of the problem(also based on what you said on Concealed Sadness.) You are scared for your future because you think you're not good enough.
The Jenina I knew since nursery believed in herself. She was not what you say you are now. I remember her facing all those difficult problems in high school with the determination to overcome them. I really think that the Jenina I knew is still in there, hidden under the darkness which is fear. It's time you see the light again. Ask a close friend to help you write your resume. You should get your close college friends to help you with the achievements in college part and powerhouse with the stuff before college. Having a close friend tell you how great you are can help boost your confidence. In fact, my college barkada refers to me as The Great One XD. Remember that you are not alone on this. You have God, you parents, me, Powerhouse, myself, your other friends, and I. So get rid of all your emo songs and create your own Get Psyched Mix.

vampiejen said...

Hahahaha... Thanks so much Scott! I am feeling good right know' maybe you're right! What the heck! You're absolutely right! :D Anyway, I think I passed my OR exam a while ago' which is really the root of this post. Hahahaha... :D

Christopher Scott said...

Of course you passed it. I'm glad you finally cheered up. Now I can get back on my own problem-accounting..... haha